Aaron Hernandez’s suicide notes to his daughter, fiancée, and lawyer were revealed in his lawyer Jose Baez’s new book, “Unnecessary Roughness: Inside the Trial and Final Days of Aaron Hernandez.”
Hernandez, a Patriots tight end from 2010 to 2013, hanged himself in his prison cell on April 19, 2017. He was serving life in prison for first-degree murder.
In his letter to his daughter, Avielle Jenkins-Hernandez, he wrote about life being eternal and to never fear him:
“Daddy will never leave you! I’m entering to the timeless realm in which I can enter into any form at any time because everything that could happen or not happened I see all at once! Life is eternal-believe!!!” Hernandez wrote. “Love, repent, and see me/yourself in everyone because that’s what the truth is! I’ll see you all in the heavens awaiting you all with the same love.”
“Never fear me, but love me with all of you! Fear is the only separation between you and I! We are each other-I/you-you/me-there’s no need to fear but what you do unto another will come back around!”
To his fianceé, Shayanna Jenkins:
You have always been my soul-mate and I want you to love life and know I’m always with you. I told you what was coming indirectly! I love you so much and know [you] are an angel. We split into two to come change the world! Your characteristic is that of a true angel and the definition of God’s love! Tell my story fully but never think anything besides how much I love you. This was the supreme almightys plan, not mine! I love you! Let Avi know how much I love her! Look after Jano and Eddie for me -they are my boys (You’re Rich).
I KNEW I LOVED YOU = SAVAGE GARDEN
NOT MUCH TIME
I’M BEING CALLED!
I love you all equally! We are all each other! Don’t shed one tear for I am with all of you and never wasn’t! do not go back to living while worshipping false idols in which I warned you about!
The Real Live Forever
According to The New York Post, Hernandez included a drawing of a thin rope dangling from a noose on the bottom of the page.
Lastly, to his lawyer Baez:
“Well, I wrote this letter following my acquittal and wanted to voice how I felt and let some people whos[e] music helped me get through hard times, know that it did. Wrong or right – who knows – I just follow my natural instincts and how it guides me. Pros or cons, didn’t weigh them, but I’m sure you’ll let me know your view.”
“Besides that, I want you to know you have me forever like you never understood and time will reveal that I’m not perfect but my love and loyalty is like you’ve never seen! I appreciate all your work, time, effort, and never let that slip your mind! In time, you will see how appreciated you are, as well as all the others equally!” he continued.
“I would like to send you letters so you can send to their [the artists] information or whichever way you think best. I don’t want any media really getting into me, trying to just send my love to all the artists who got me through my tough times and sending my respect to a few of the real ones out there.”